I apologize for all the information, but so much has happened since I first started this website, I am not sure where to start . . .

It was a dark and stormy night and no that was a different story.
I graduated! That was a blessing that almost did not happen and if
it had not I do not know what I have done. Any ways I worked for Northland
for the summer editing the radio program, Directions, then got let
go with the hope of job in the near future. I stayed around Northland
living at home, spending the little bit of money that I had saved.
I was able to pick up a job here and there to survive. Meanwhile my
mom was pressuring me to get out on my own. So I put feelers out for
a job, trying to find the right direction to go.

This is when my life took a huge turn . . . for better or worse I
am not sure yet, I am leaning towards the better though. In October
I had the time (based on my lack of a job) to go with my brother’s
Jon and Judd, to BJU. While there I saw a friend that I had not seen
for quite a while. Her name is Elisheba, a girl that I had been slightly
interested in when I worked with her a few summers before. Then at
Josh and Shannon’s wedding I ended up flirting with her for the majority
of time that I was around her and had developed a stronger interest
although I never really imagined that that interest would come back
to entice me. I realized in October that I liked her still . . .
I got involved in a job with my former boss, Jason Gerdt, installing
and setting up an audio system for Long Lake Baptist Church. I was
able to get enough money from there to tide me over till I could work
security at Northland over Christmas break.

For New Years I had the opportunity to go with Josh and Shannon to
visit Elisheba, During that time I figured that I should let her know
some how that I was interested in her. So after wracking my brain
for the perfect solution I came up with the idea of getting her a
rose. I went back and forth between a red rose, thinking that it might
be a little strong, so I switch my thots to a yellow rose, but that
was not quite what I wanted to say. So I settled on a pink rose, and
decided to make my own definition up if what the symbolism of the
flower did not line up with what I wanted to say :) That trip was
awesome, I would like to continue talking about Elisheba but a few
other things happened before she came back into the story, needless
to say I started getting in contact with her as she went back to school.

I returned to home and Northland and soon everything finally caught up
to me. During the beginning of February, I moved away from everything that
I knew and everyone that I loved to the city of Minneapolis. You ask
why Minneapolis, well let me tell you, first of all I needed to move
to some place that was somewhat big, especially cause the area that
I was looking at going into was A/V. I was thinking of trying to get
a job at an educational institution, somewhat like I had been hooked
up with at Northland so I would not be too much out of what I knew.
So I was looking at a city and then I really did not want to leave
the Midwest cause I knew that changes would not be too overwhelming.
The third reason I picked Minneapolis was that I had two friends here
Dan Stahl and Sam Wils, and Sam had told me that I could stay at his
place for a bit if I needed a place to stay. The final reason and
possibly the biggest one was that Minneapolis is exactly 6 hours from
home and 6 hours from Kansas City, where Elisheba lives.

I got to Minneapolis and searched around for a job. None of my posts
had led anywhere but dead ends. :( I mean sure I had only been in
the area for a week but still I was hoping something would have come
up by then. I went and visited FedEx, I was so desperate (nothing against
people that work at FedEx) Well the only thing left to do was to trust
God, a thing that I prolly should have done first, but trust is a
hard thing, especially if it is with a person/ being that you do not
have a very strong relationship with and it has the tendency to not work
out very well. Anyways I trusted God and asked him to provide. Well
a friend of mine Dan Stahl was working for this company called Tek
Systems and gave me a number to call. I called the number and two
days later I received a call and had an interview that resulted in
a temp job for a night, until the guy called back and set me up with an interview,
which resulted in the job that I have now.

The job required me to get some training and to do that I had to go
to Charlotte NC, and it just so happened that the week before, I started
to date this awesome girl, Elisheba and she was going to school 2
hours away from Charlotte. I got a hold of her friend Carolyn and
we devised some plans and put the plans into motion. Tuesday night
after training I jumped in a rental car and drove over to where Elisheba
lived. I got there a bit early an so I went to Walmart till she was
planning on returning to the apartment. It was one of the longest
times in my life, those few hours waiting so close but not being able
to go see her till later. I went over to the apartment talk to Carolyn
for a bit and the rest of the evening worked like clockwork. None
of the plans that I had made fell into place but it was a beautiful
evening with a beautiful girl. I drove back very late that night and
she said that she might be able to get over to Charlotte Thursday.
That was another awesome time I had. The plans that I had laid out
did not work, I got lost, which I frequently do, heh but I have come
to the conclusion that it is not about the places that you go to but
the people you go with that make the events special. I dragged her
past a movie theater, I know I am mean :) and to a shop that served
Quesadillas. I only ate a half. (BTW emotions can cause the fastest
weight loss) After the shop closed we strolled around, there was magic
in the air and the evening was truly enchanted.

Well If you have gotten this far with me I will try to go faster and
shorter so that you do not have to hear too much more of my talking
about Elisheba. Well she left and it was Sunday before I floated down
from the cloud that I had been taken up to and Monday work started.
I can tell you that I would have never made it if it would not been
for Elisheba emailing me. The people that I work with are great, but
the work seems to drag most of the times cause it is relatively the
same. I was busy but life was good. I got an apartment moved out of
Sam’s room of which I had been sleepin on the floor for the last few
months and got my stuff moved over just in time to be sent to LA.
I was there for two weeks. Those were long hard weeks although I did
have the opportunity to meet Elisheba’s best friend’s boyfriend. Ya
I know that is confusing, but John is a pretty sweet dude, he lives
in San Diego.. I got back from the long two week trip exhausted, just
after a long plane ride and called Elisheba. We had a nice talk which
ended up in our breaking up. I was devastated, totally and completely
broken. I did not know what to do or where to go or which side was
up. I am still kinda woozy, but since that has happened soo much has
happened, areas in my life that need to be adjusted have been brought
to live, reasons that I do what I do and why I am the way I am and
most importantly what I need to change have been brought into the
light. It is not a nice thing to see the truth, but it is a good thing.
Now I cannot say whether or not I will ever get over Elisheba and
what I feel for her, but I do know that a piece of my heart is gone
and with it some love, affection, and happiness.

My future is uncertain, it is like my driving. I can guarantee that
you will get the er um scenic route :) while you are with me, but
though the path may be uncertain, I know that i am not alone
because God is watching out for me and is with me.

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